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Name: modgurl
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New mom. New woman. Born in Singapore. Raised in the World Wide Web.
Monday, August 17, 2015 @ 11:31 pm
Live Long and Prosper

Dear Blogger,

It has been a really long day today. I've just got home from Grammar & Vocabulary class at Napier. Again, I'm way past my bedtime.

Brought back two Syrian hamsters yesterday. The owner said they are males, but who knows. They were born on 27 June, so that makes them about a month and a half old. We're calling them Groot and Rocket. Obviously, we're big fans of the Guardians of the Galaxy movie. Awesome movie by the way.

This is the first time we've got Syrian hamsters. Previously, we only had dwarfs, which is much smaller than Syrians. Besides the bigger size, Syrians are known for their gorgeous golden coats. Their behaviours are definitely different from dwarfs. I notice they like to dig a lot.

I haven't really seen my children today. Yes, I fetched them from school, but I've to rush to my class after that. It's days like these that make me feel guilty being a working/study mom. Already as it is, my children are growing up in a blink of an eye. How many more moments do I have to miss their childhood?

It's always a struggle isn't it? I wonder if fathers feel the same way. I know my husband keeps saying how often he missed their milestones, but when he's here, I notice he doesn't see the children for who they really are. What he sees are what he expects to see about them.

I'm just trying to do the best I can in my different roles; a working woman, a student, a mother, and a wife. The harder thing to do is to really enjoy the moment, enjoy the journey, because we get caught up in the grind of daily life.

We want quality of life, and we expect quality of life. But how can we deserve quality of life when we're not giving quality of life? Now that I'm older, and hopefully wiser, I've learnt that I have to give first before I can take.

So, for my children to live a life of quality, I have to give them quality time and energy. It's all very subjective, but that's the beauty of life isn't it? It's not about the how much. It's about the how well. So, live life to the best of your abilities, and forgive yourself if you don't.

Sincerely,
modgurl.

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Sunday, August 16, 2015 @ 11:40 pm
Walk It Girl!

Dear Blogger,

After almost a year of stepping on the scale the first thing in the morning, my weight has reached a plateau. I'm still about 10kg above my ideal weight, but I've learnt to live with it. There are bigger things in life than being very obsessed with my size and weight. Now, that takes a very confident woman to say such things.

When people ask me if I'm pregnant, I just grin and bear it. I'm not too happy with my belly either, but it's not like I'm going to step out in a bikini at the beach. I could do with more walking. I used to walk every evening after dinner. Ironically, now that I'm working half-day, I still can't find the time to go walking.

You know and I know that that's just an excuse. There is always time for something! I just need that extra push to get my butt off the seat. Oh darn! I can't go walking tomorrow because I've training at Napier! Oh well...

Sincerely,
modgurl.

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Saturday, August 15, 2015 @ 10:39 pm
Macchiato and Aching Feet

Dear Blogger,

It has been a long day. My feet are aching from hours of standing. I have blisters on my right foot even though I wore socks with my slip on shoes. I'm just not as young as I used to be. I'm beginning to feel the signs of aging.

My day started like any other working day. I had seminar class on project management today. Saturdays are not meant to be studying heavy subjects. Saturdays are not meant for studying at all!

I thought I'd come early so I could grab a grande skinny caramel macchiato at the campus Starbucks. It opened at 8am and I arrived 10 minutes later. But the queue had reached the door at the other end! Patience is a virtue, and although I came to class 10min late, the caramel macchiato tasted like heavenly reward for attending class on Saturday morning.

Ran some errands after class, and when I reached home, it was almost 3pm. At 5pm, I had to go to work for till 9pm. It's all because my preschool had participated in the town's "Learning Carnival". But I have to say that the turnout was good. That was why I've been standing for hours. Manning a booth in a community event is not for the weak.

Besides the exhaustion, I've learnt that free movie screenings are very popular among heartlanders. The town I'm living in has organised countless movie screenings, mostly outdoor, and they are all well-received!

I remember being in charge of movie screenings for school events during polytechnic days. Back then, you can't just bring movies in hard disks. They came in large laser discs, and they can be quite heavy if you have several titles to screen. Screening "Armageddon" in the school's theatre gave me my biggest turnout. Boy those were the days.

Sincerely,
modgurl.

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Friday, August 14, 2015 @ 11:39 pm
Friday Night Lights

Dear Blogger,

I've finally finished my portion of the group assignment, which I have been putting off for a couple of weeks. Just finished it. Way past my bedtime, but I still have a few more minutes to post a reflection before a new day arrives.

Browsed Facebook and saw a reunion event at my secondary school. I knew there was some kind of reunion being planned, but didn't realise that it was actually tonight. Not that I could go anyway, what with the overdue group assignment. Still, it did hurt a little that none of my schoolmates reminded me about it.

Sometimes when I look at pictures of schoolmates still hanging out and being close makes me a little green with envy. I've accepted the fact that I'm not the type to have many friends, let alone close friends. But it would be nice to have a buddy to share laughter and tears. It can be very lonely being strong all the time.

I'd better get some sleep. I have a long day tomorrow. Lecture in the morning (yes, lecture on a Saturday yikes!) and work in the evening. After a super long weekend last week, looks like I'll be having a super short weekend this time round.

Sincerely,
modgurl.

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Thursday, August 13, 2015 @ 10:17 pm
Procrastination, Be Gone!

Dear Blogger,

The group assignment is still outstanding. I just don't know what it is with the computer at home. Every time I switched it on to work on my assignment, I spent hours on Pinterest instead! I've gotten my work to-dos done as scheduled, but every time I get home, I just can't seem to stick to my task list. Ironically, I'd be browsing Pinterest for ways to stop procrastinating. It's ridiculous I know!





Here's my own trying-and-testing ways to stop procrastinating, inspired by Real Simple's guide to How to Stop Procrastinating, taken from Pinterest of course.

Do the worst thing first
I've been trying to do this for over 2 weeks already! But, perseverance will reap rewards.

Make the job smaller
Break the task into smaller tasks, but no need to be so anal about it.

Write the task down and set a timer!
Writing makes abstract things seem concrete. Setting a time frame to the task also makes it more measurable.

Reward thyself after checking off the task
To put a tick against the task is already a reward in itself, but indulge yourself. Just be careful not to overdo it. Online shopping, I'm looking at you.

Sincerely,
modgurl.

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Wednesday, August 12, 2015 @ 9:51 pm
Why Can't We Be Friends?

Dear Blogger,

I still haven't started on my group assignment, although I've added it to my to-do list yesterday, and it was supposed to be done yesterday. Now I have one annoying overdue task in my list. It's haunting my mind till I get it done. But the problem with life is that there is always something more urgent to do than what you have planned for!

Xenophobia is rampant in Singapore. Most people would deny it blatantly upfront, but really, they participate in one form of xenophobic activity one way or another. The recent case being the NDP poster girl who's not Singaporean and was granted tickets to the NDP.

Personally, I feel that since it's a jubilee celebration, Singaporeans should have first access to the coveted NDP tickets. I've never watched NDP live before, and I was born and bred here. Rationally, it doesn't matter who gets the tickets. Perhaps that girl came with her Singaporean friend.

I think the problem with born and bred Singaporeans is that they demand a sense of disproportionate entitlement. We are the generation that are living off the fruits of past generations' labour. We have no first-hand experience of hardship, and no, not having access to wifi isn't hardship, and we are certainly not grateful for what we have.

I don't know what reasons immigrants chose to be Singaporeans, but I'm sure our reasons would be the same if we were on the same boat too. We may think the grass is greener on the other side, and people from the other side would think the same about our grass too.

So, instead of wasting our energy on creating bile with the influx of foreigners, divert that energy into something more positively productive, like making friends. We were once immigrants too, remember?

Sincerely,
modgurl.

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Tuesday, August 11, 2015 @ 10:34 pm
Warped Speed Ahead!

Dear Blogger,

It's August! Gosh! Time is flying on supersonic speed doesn't it? Ever since Ramadan, my life has been crazy! I've been working on warped speed!

So... The big SG50 National Day celebrations have just ended. It was quite a jubilee celebration I must say, although, I think most Singaporeans were (and still are) griping over the super long queues, massive human and traffic jams, and the fickle weather.

We were quite spoiled with the four-day weekend that the Singapore government had gladly bestowed upon us. Despite the fact that we spent three days at home, I still didn't want the break to end so soon.

I've re-attempted making lists (again!). I only allowed myself to set up to three to-dos each day. Today, I've only managed to ticked off two of my to-dos. I just need more practice that's all.

I've also re-attempted daily reflections. Hence, this post. It's supposed to be one of the things successful people do before they go to bed. The other thing is reading. I didn't manage to finish reading a book last month, but I do have a two-book advantage. I told you my life was crazy.

Backlog is piling up at work. Now that the school semester has started, you can bet that the backlog is not going to reduce anytime soon. As I'm writing this, I should be doing my assignment. Instead, oh well... You know how it is.

Sincerely,
modgurl.

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