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Name: modgurl
Location: Singapore

New mom. New woman. Born in Singapore. Raised in the World Wide Web.
Sunday, April 01, 2012 @ 9:57 pm

Dear Blogger,

It's 1st of April. Can't remember if I had blogged anything in March. Last month was certainly a hectic and stressful month if you had followed my tweets. My father, most of all, was the centre of attention last month. He passed away on 20th March. But that was not unexpected. My mother and brother had after all, pulled the plug of his dialysis treatment. How could anyone survived any longer than a week on failed kidneys?

He didn't deserve to be treated like that. For his life to be taken away for selfish reasons... That's just not right. I knew he wanted to continue with the treatment. He told the doctor and the social worker so. I've just found out that he changed his mind after my mother scolded him for insisting with the treatment. Reason being, she couldn't afford it. For God's sake! She lives in a spacious 5-room flat. She has gold jewellery from head to toe. Her home is wired to the max and she has cable tv! Is this a picture of a family living in poverty???

I don't deny that kidney dialysis can be expensive but that doesn't mean there aren't financial assistance around. I was in the midst of applying subsidy at NKF when she stopped the treatment! What was really sad was to hear my father giving up his life for the sake of his selfish wife and arsehole of a son.

He's gone now. I hope God is kind to him. I hope my mother is happy now. She's been complaining how miserable she has been all these years what with the "liability" under her roof. She has no more burden now. I don't give a damn what she does now.

At the wake, my mother, brother and sister were weeping openly. How ironic. They weren't crying when my father was calling out for help on his bed and no one came to help him. They weren't crying when he was miserable in the hospital. They weren't crying when they called him an inconvenienced. They were just a load of bullshit.

There's a Malay proverb that says, "Sliced water cannot be cut". It means family ties can never be broken. That may be true but it doesn't mean I've to be part of their drama. Am I bitter? No. Just disappointed. You can't choose who you're born into but you can choose the direction you want to take.


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