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Tuesday, September 21, 2010 @ 12:37 pm

Dear Blogger,

It's the 12th day of Syawal already and I hope that's the end of Hari Raya celebrations for me. After 1 week, I'm exhausted with the visiting and hosting. I have already managed to complete my necessary visits in the first 3 days but somehow, Ipy hasn't gotten enough of it. Can't blame him because this year is like the first time he's celebrated Hari Raya at home. Poor boy.

Just like any other year before, this Hari Raya is not complete without stress and controversy. It is said that 1st Syawal is supposed to be a day of forgiveness and to seek forgiveness. I do believe that IF AND ONLY IF both recipient and receiver are sincere. However, most of the time, you just know that this practice has become more customary than actual intent. "Maaf" (forgive) rolls easily from some people's tongue on Hari Raya.

Because of this, I find it difficult to just accept and forget. Why should I? If the person is sincerely seeking forgiveness for whatever past misdeeds he has done to me, then his actions will clearly show that!

A case in hand: My mother. After months of not acknowledging my existence, she suddenly wants to open up communication lines in the last few days of Ramadan. I was too busy to entertain her. Then, on Hari Raya itself, despite asking for forgiveness, she showed her true intentions soon after i.e. she wanted us to drive her around for Hari Raya visits.

HELLO!!! That's what the family car which she had so generously bought for my brother, is for!!! On Hari Raya, my god-knows-what's-in-his-head brother worked and used the car. If he really had to work on that day, then leave the car for my mother to drive! She does have a driver's license you know.

On the second day, we had already told her that we were going out. Yet, she still came to our home! What was she trying to do? Blackmail us into bringing her along??? What was wrong with that woman?

I still couldn't get over the fact that she left my dad all alone at home just so she could go visiting. Not just to her mom's place, but everywhere! We were dumbstruck when my uncle told us that my mom had gone visiting till 2 a.m.! I couldn't do or say anything but just blinked my eyes.

The sad thing was, when my father's siblings wanted to visit, she told them that she was not at home or was too tired to entertain. But when it came to her side of the family, she welcomed them with wide open arms.

I hate it when she uses us for her own gains. Now, she's trying to use my daughter to get to me. I will never allow it! Until she changes her behaviour, I am reluctant to allow my children to be with her.


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Wednesday, September 01, 2010 @ 10:56 am

Dear Blogger,

Remember I said that I won't be baking cookies or cakes this Hari Raya? Well... I've already spicy mini popiah, sweet mini popiah, honey joys and chocolate chip cookies. Sorry, no pictures yet. So far, all my efforts this year have been positive. Ipy can't seem to stop munching on any of them.

It seems that despite buying lots of kuehs and kerepeks from Simpang Renggam this year, I can't resist making some! it's like tradition I guess. Besides, how many of my generation makes Hari Raya goodies these days??? Anyway, hopefully this tradition will be passed down to my daughters and their daughters.

For the first time, Ipy will be attempting to make ketupat this year. My family has never make ketupat although my dad taught me how to weave. Not surprisingly, I'm the only one still who knows how to weave. We are all very excited about making our own ketupat. Ipy hopes that this will be another family tradition. Not many young generation knows how to weave a ketupat let alone knows the process of making one.

I am going to attempt making steamed fruit cake tomorrow. We didn't order any cakes and I think it's a little late to place any orders for one. Looking at the canisters piling up on the dining table, it's safe to say that we have plenty of Hari Raya goodies already. So why oh why am I itching to bake more???

This Ramadan so far has been quite blessed for us. Food were more than adequite since we've been exchanging dishes with our Muslim neighbours. Hari Raya clothes and accessories were comfortably budgeted and spent. Ipy and I were able to conduct our prayers without much distractions. It has been a good Ramadan so far indeed.


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