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Name: modgurl
Location: Singapore

New mom. New woman. Born in Singapore. Raised in the World Wide Web.
Saturday, June 30, 2007 @ 11:30 pm

Dear Blogger,

I woke up to a pool of blood this morning. Ok... I exaggerated there. The point was, I haven't woken up with bloodied bed sheet since my puberty schoolgirl days. This is what happens when your body clock changes its schedule without any warning. Isn't it wonderful to be a woman sometimes?

Well, at least I know for sure that I'm not pregnant. Back to the issue about being a woman. Not only do we have to bear with the pain and inconveniences of monthly menses, but do we also have to be discriminated against when it comes to the rare government payouts? What the hell am I talking about? The GST Offset Package of course!

Women get $100 lesser than men simply because we didn't have to serve National Service. Bollocks! What's 2 years (reduced from 2 1/2 years!) of physical training as compared to menses, pregnancy and motherhood? On the work-front, women work equally hard as our male counterparts, if not harder! Besides, aren't we serving our own form of National Service by giving birth and raising the sons of our nation? If this is too much of an ego-blaster to our male-populated government, at least give equal payouts to just the mothers.

Great Singapore Sale + GST Offset Package = Crowded Orchard Road (as seen from the 24-hr Coffee Club)

In another totally irrelevant matter, I think my new student's father is flirting with me! We've met 3 times already and he always sends me to the elevator after the lesson. Then he'd say something stupid like, "Leaving already?". Duh!

Tonight, he had a new computer installed. So we talked a bit about computers and how I majored in it, while waiting for the elevator. Then he said if he had known, he'd call me instead to help set it up. Or even get me to help his kids with the applications. Seemingly innocent right? Even when he asked me when I'm free it seemed innocent.

The elevator arrived. His last words were, "Call me!". It didn't sound like "call me about helping my kids", but "call me about anything, anytime". Weird!

May the force be with me!


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Friday, June 29, 2007 @ 10:29 pm

Dear Blogger,

I guess it's the La Nina effect. It rains when traditionally, it's not suppose to rain. On some days, it's hot. Super hot. As I was walking home from work, it was drizzling. I've had a long day. The rain felt refreshing. I smoked on a ciggie while walking.

I was reminded of Paris. Walking along River Seine, with a cigarette between my fingers, on a rainy day. The menthol aftertaste made the already cool weather cooler. I shivered. But it was a good shiver. Long puffs after long puffs, savouring the cool taste. My head became lighter after each puff. I felt like my feet weren't touching the ground as I walked. I was flying.

Was this how drugs were supposed to feel like? I don't know. Not that I have any intentions of trying any out. The only drugs I'll consume are the ones prescribed by my doctor. Even then, I've not taken one in quite some time. I haven't swallowed any anti-depressants nor sleeping pills since... February.

I told a friend about my baby dreams I've had of late. She said it was a sign that fortune would come my way soon. Not surprisingly, this is the weekend when the GST Offset Package will be handed out to Singapore citizens. I won't be getting much. Only a couple of hundred dollars. This is the amount that is supposed to help me cope with the increase in Goods and Services Tax that will take effect on the same day this amount is given to me. Hmm... I still can't see the rationale.

I've also told her about the dreams of my ex-boyfriends. She said that these same ex-boyfriends were missing and thinking of me. Surprisingly, this sentiment was shared by the other ladies at the lunch table. Fact or fiction, I don't know. I just find dream interpretation very interesting among the different cultures.

Me waiting outside my student's home

She kept me waiting again even though she pushed up her lesson time because she had another family function to attend afterwards. Sigh...


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Thursday, June 28, 2007 @ 11:20 pm

Dear Blogger,

To set my mind at ease, I bought a pregnancy kit and tested myself. I'm not pregnant. Surprisingly, instead of feeling relieved as I hoped I would, I felt disappointed. I was even hoping that the second line would appear! Was that disturbing or what? I'm still late though.

So for the rest of the day, I felt like things weren't going well for me. I felt like there was something wrong with me. I'm even starting to feel depressed!

This is ridiculous! I'm sure I'll meet someone! I'm not a maneater! Yes I have aspirations, but I'm a nice, wonderful person! Any man would be mad or stupid to pass up the chance to get to know me!

A strange thing just happened to me. I'm no longer angry with my past! It'll still be foolish of me to think that I can be friends with both Idris and Din. Men in general are not mature enough to handle that sort of situation.


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Wednesday, June 27, 2007 @ 10:23 pm

Dear Blogger,

I did something which I have not done in 15 over years. I went to the zoo!!! I've always wanted to visit our world-famous Singapore Zoo, but there were always excuses like, no time, no money, no friend, etc, etc, etc. Finally, the opportunity came and I didn't hesitate one bit!

Like most things Singaporean, the zoo has changed a lot. I mean, A LOT! There are definitely more exhibits and animal shows. It seemed bigger than the last time I remembered it. Or maybe I was getting too old. Less stamina. But I'm glad this time round, I got to enjoy all of the zoo at my own pace and time. The zoo is best experienced when you have a full day to spend.

Me at AMK bus interchange (I'm wearing the necklace I bought from Em's Beading & Beyond webbie)

Necklace courtesy of Beading and Beyond

The 3 bus services at the Singapore Zoo: 138, 926 and 927

me at the zoo entrance with elephant statues

Me at the zoo entrance ala Paris Hilton (LOL!)

Take a picture with these brightly coloured birds for $5 (all proceeds go to the caring and conservation of the animals)

Feeding time for these monkeys at the free-ranging forest

Orang utans high up in the tree tops

Feeding time for otters too!

Me near the otters

The white tigers were so beautiful that I wanted to bring home one!

Me near the white tigers

Can't remember what this was... Probably some huge fish

Pigmy hippo (underwater ballerina)

Baboons (this area stinks! Literally!)

World's most venomous... err...

Australian outback animals

The Elephants in the Wild show

An elephant skull


Cheetah (fastest land sprinter)


Oran utan again

Not a puppy but some monkey out of its enclosed area

Some huge python

Some hissing cockroaches (gross!)

Flying foxes (world's largest bats)

A tree kangaroo

Iguanas (komodo dragon wasn't in sight *sob sob*)

Giant tortoises

A manatee at the Splash Safari

A proboscis monkey (I was intrigued by its small, bright red penis)

Crocodiles (sudden thought of Steve Irwin)

Animal-shaped plants

In the process of editing the video. Will be uploaded soon on YouTube.


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