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Name: modgurl
Location: Singapore

New mom. New woman. Born in Singapore. Raised in the World Wide Web.
Tuesday, May 29, 2007 @ 11:38 pm

Dear Blogger,

Live to fear, or fear to live? Questions like these have been occupying my mind for over a month or so. Hence, the inactivity here. I didn't want to write. I didn't want to be in touch with the world. I just wanted to be with myself.

Sincerely,
modgurl.

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Thursday, May 24, 2007 @ 11:12 pm

Dear Blogger,

I was utterly heartbroken when Blake Lewis lost to Jordin Sparks in American Idol 6. Blake Lewis has been the most exciting thing that has happened to the "singing" talent show since America voted for Rubben Studdard instead of Clay Aiken. What a bore America!

As for me...

Sincerely,
modgurl.

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@ 1:28 am

Dear Blogger,

Why do I feel so misguided?
Why am I easily tempted?
Why do I feel so sad?
Why am I so lost?
Why am I so angry?
Why do I feel so hopeless?
Why am I not happy?
Why do I feel so empty?
Why am I not content?
Why do I cry all the time?
Why don't I have self-belief?
Why can't I forget him?
Why can't I see the moon tonight?
Why does he haunt me?
Why do I feel so miserable?
Why do I feel unloved?

Sincerely,
modgurl.

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Saturday, May 19, 2007 @ 9:09 pm

Dear Blogger,

Why am I always so fucking angry??? Why am I so bloody hell full of hatred all the time???

Sincerely,
modgurl.

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Monday, May 14, 2007 @ 12:13 pm

Dear Blogger,

DOB: 28-Jan-1980
Age in years: 27.29
Age in months: 328
Age in days: 9,962
Age in hours: 2,39,080
Age in minutes: 14,344,829
Age in milliseconds: 860,689,725
Age in weeks: 69,732
Born on: Monday

Characteristics:
Ambitious and serious
Loves to teach and be taught
Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses
Likes to criticise
Hardworking and productive
Smart, neat and organised
Sensitive and has deep thoughts
Knows how to make others happy
Quiet unless excited or tensed
Rather reserved
Highly attentive
Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds
Romantic but has difficulties expressing love
Loves children
Homely person
Loyal
Needs to improve social abilities
Easily jealous

Hmm...

Sincerely,
modgurl.

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Thursday, May 10, 2007 @ 11:36 pm

Dear Blogger,

Do you know what it feels like to be empty? I guess not. You won't be able to feel anything if you do.

Sincerely,
modgurl.

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Friday, May 04, 2007 @ 11:57 pm

Dear Blogger,

These days, watching sequels in the cinema is a painful affair for me. I couldn't help but recall watching the original with a former lover or someone of interest. This year seems to be the year of sequels. There are "Spiderman 3", "Pirates of the Caribbean: World's End" and "Harry Porter and the Order of the Phoenix".

Time flies so fast when you're getting older. It felt like it was just yesterday that I've celebrated New Year's Eve at Siloso Beach. Amazingly, it felt like years ago since I've had my heart ripped out by a guy. I don't know if that was good or bad. If it felt so long ago, then why am I still feeling the pain?

I really don't know what to do with myself. I can't seem to see the future at all. I'm driftwood again.

Sincerely,
modgurl.

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Tuesday, May 01, 2007 @ 11:21 pm

Dear Blogger,

I am so tired of putting up this facade. Everyday, I force myself to be "happy", when in fact, I'm miserable. Why do I feel like this? Why can't I be normal? Or at least, be cured? Why do I feel miserable all the time? Worse, why do I have to hide this misery all the time?

I have nothing more to write.

Sincerely,
modgurl.

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